One month.

Exactly one month till the inevitable "officially starting to get old" age of 20. Dear Gods, this is so weird and awkward. I think it's more awkward than puberty even, because you know what's going on with puberty and what to expect, but with this, anything can happen. I still feel like I'm maybe like 15 or something very young, yet I'm getting all these responsibilities and making all these plans and decisions and I'm old enough to do things and be an "adult" but I'm not 21 and officially an adult in every aspect of life. Not that I'll necessarily feel like an adult by 21 either, seeing how things are going so far. I....I don't know what to think or do. It's craziness! And things are easier than expected -and- harder than expected at the same time. *sighs* Oi. These next two years are going to be very interesting indeed.

So I'm gonna turn in my resume to a guy at the PAC tomorrow or Tuesday, and Michelle is gonna put in a good word for me. She also said that she thought I would probably most likely get the job regardless, so that's a good sign. Nella is chill and easy, the French husband and wife duo that own the business are entertaining. But they make me want to talk in a French accent and say french words a lot, which would make me look like a mocking idiot, so that's a bad thing. And it's true apparently, that French women don't shave under their arms and such. Well, for some at least. The wife is one of these women, for she was wearing a camisole shirt thing, and she reached up for something, and voila, obviously unshaved pits XD Random story of the day lol.

Man....it's about to be 4 am and I have to go to work at 11 am at Nella. Gheigh. Maybe if I'm really tired Brionna will let me go home a little early. She offered for me to do that last week when I hadn't gotten any sleep, so yea. But I need the money, so I'll see how much I can hold out for. One nice thing about Nella is that you get paid every Friday. But that can also mean easier for you to spend it all..which I can't spend any really because I have $275 worth of car insurance to pay up by October 1st x_x. So expensive....at least gas prices are down a bit though.

And just because it is September 11th, I will comment that I think that people should get over the thing already. Being heartless you say? No, I think not. Not when there's a whole half a continent or more suffering genocides and all sorts of attrocities, in Africa, which are a million times worse than what we had happen (and we've sorta been asking for it for awhile, being so cocky all the time) here and you hear about the stupid war in Iraq and see movies and shit about September 11th all the time, but how much about something so much more serious going on right -now- not 5 years ago or whatever it was? No one cares about them it seems, but oh, we're force fed the September 11th stuff all the time. Just because we're America and we're cocky attention whores. Or well, they are anyway. To me, while the whole Sept. 11th incident was sad and terrible for the innocent who were affected and killed, it is but a small speck next to so many other things that have happened and will happen. And also, I don't know about you, but I knew it was coming. I knew war was ready to errupt at any moment, and I was just a 15 yr old girl at the time. It's just common sense. Anyway, I'm rambling and probably mildly offending some people so I'll go to bed now, having gotten that out of my system.