Oblivion

"And I fell asleep the way I reckon people fall in love, without even knowing it's happening."
-The Rapture of Canaan

I had found that quote on someones page and it struck me as if I had heard it before, and if I really hadn't, then I had been waiting to find it, because I knew it and loved it already. A bit like finding a soul mate.

Speaking of soul mates, I had never ever doubted their existance. But I did doubt that there was only one soul mate in the world or universe for each person. I had already found several soul mates in my short time on Earth in this lifetime, after all. Perhaps, I thought, each different lifetime ones soul lived through caused a change in the soul...an evolution. With each lifetime, and each evolution, a piece was added on to the whole, and for each piece of the whole there was a different soul mate. Thus, one could have infinite soul mates just as one could theoretically have infinite lives and reincarnations. It would explain the different kind of connection that could be experienced with each different person. And perhaps, there were some soul mates that had more matching pieces with a person, due to recurring connections in past lives, thus also explaining why some of these soul mates would appear to have a stronger bond with one than some of the others. Alright, you could call me crazy, but you could never prove me wrong.

Sitting in a pile of comforters, pillows, and sheets on my bed in a sleeplessly tired daze I stared at the window as the tell-tale grey light of morning started to penetrate my blinds and sheer curtains to lull me into an even deeper, and mellower, state of mind. Morning twillight was always the best to wallow and think in, the quietest time of the entire day for it held that dramatic pause of someone holding their breath, waiting for the sudden -something- they knew was coming any moment, the kind of reaction you'd have watching a scary movie. That something was of course the world awakening, but there was still the suspense of not knowing exactly what would happen, for no one could really know.

With the comforting tendrils of grey surrounding me and keeping me safe in my cocoon of thought and feeling, I decided it was best to let sleep have the chance to sneak up on me and intoxicate my being like a newfound love, as that quote suggested. I was, after all, exhausted and bored with yesterday. I needed to close my eyes and let today start.