They weren't kidding when they said real life is complicated. Especially if you're just stepping into it. I knew I could do it, but it was taking a lot of motivation and thinking, and sometimes lack of thinking, because thinking too much could be a bad thing too. I didn't know how I was going to manage all this, but I didn't have a choice so I was going to have to suck it up and pile drive through everything, closing my eyes until the ride was over if necessary.