The Hardest Button To Button

I'm worried about Sean. Every time I see him lately he's on something, or gets something to use, or is already on something and goes and gets something else. It brings forth a variety of feelings from me. It sort of disappoints me, makes me sad, makes me feel sorry for him, makes me a bit angry and frustrated, and so on and so forth. What makes me even more angry is how he draws Michael in, and Michael seeks him out for this reason. And Michael can't seem to be able to say no to things on his own, despite his so called promises. It's horrible to have to think to yourself that your best friend is a bad influence and that you need to distance your loved ones from him so that they aren't harmed the way he's harming himself.

I wonder if there's even an actual valid (though I guess no reason is really valid in the end) reason for Sean to be abusing all this stuff so much again. And I wonder why Michael still finds it necessary to seek it out. Maybe it's just pure addiction and has no other reason than that at this point.

I want to help them, but it's hard when the person isn't exactly thrilled about the idea. And to keep on steadily loving those who aren't really there or themselves anymore is hard too. At least Michael isn't as bad as Sean right now I guess. Or something.
It's depressing.
It makes me feel alone, when the last two people I have steady contact with are just retarded shells no better than empty space.
Who's there when I need someone?

Echo.