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I'm not sure how I managed to do it...But I do know why. And that I had been meaning to do it for some time now.
It seems I'm slowly becoming indifferent again, like I used to be back in the day....uncompromising and self-interested, as a means of trying to send a message across to him, or to save myself from some of the extra grief caring too much seemed to cause. If anything, either he'll start giving just as much as he wants to receive, or I'll stop caring and needing so much. The first one is more desirable of course, but the second one wouldn't do me any harm either, since I do recognize that I've grown into a sort of needy person. Not without reason at least.
So, no more midnight sandwich making or trips to the gas station on his whim, no more giving in to his girly-voiced pleas of servitude without something in return, or a genuine, "Alright, sure you deserve it" to back it up. Sure giving is great, but receiving is pretty damn good too. I don't need to get this jaded so soon.
To top it off, or as a reaction to the new terms, or something...it seems most of his free time is now spent delving into the online gaming world, including the soul-eating World of Warcraft (WoW). I too have rediscovered the joys of the internet, but more as a means of reconnecting with old friends and IMing well into the morning. This morning when I chose to stay up longer and finish conversing with one of these old friends instead of cuddling with him, I think I noted what could have easily been jealousy--a rare thing for him to display indeed!
Well, I've lost my train of thought, and I think that's a good amount of venting indeed, so goodnight.